confusion, hurt, and awkwardness
Well tonight was quite an interesting one. I went over to a friend’s house for a typical friendly gathering and my very very recently ex-boyfriend happened to be there. I expected it but it didn’t change the weirdness. He seemed to be ignoring me the whole night and I’m pretty sure neither of us knew what we were supposed to do. I feel like he wants everything to be all dandy and normal again but it really can’t be. I really wish I knew what was happening or going on in his head because it really bugs me. He makes it seem like it didn’t effect him one bit and that makes it hurt even worse because out of the 2 years that we were together doesn’t he care that we are not now? Boys are dumb and I really wish he would just tell me his thoughts. I feel like that would help me better process and find closure with the whole situation. I don’t think that he truly understands how badly he hurt me through all of this. I put my whole heart and soul into our relationship and he threw it away like a piece of used tissue. I hate feeling like this but I seriously can’t help it and it can never be the same way that it was. And Kelsey I know that you are the only person who is going to read this because you are my only follower so here you go it is a piece of my thoughts wrapped into a really long probably crappy paragraph…
SHIT!
Well basically this is just a venting post because here is the thing: I am leaving at 7:00 AM to go to Atlanta with my Gospel Choir and won’t be back until Sunday night at like 12:00 which i guess is technically monday morning, but anyways and then I have 2!!!!!! group projects due and still have a lot to do on both of them, therefore i will not be sleeping on monday night. and also on monday i have a paper, i have to work out for wealth and hellness(health and wellness) and i get to go to work for 5 hours….i think that my brain is going to explode!!!!! my mind is overwhelmed with shit to think about and do ahhhhhh somebody save me
